ON THE EDGE

Have you ever been on the edge of your life, where all you think about is whether to jump or not to see what lies on the other side? To have a little glimpse of the future. To be able to experience a moment in time. A side of life you've always been curious about. A part of something bigger than you. A peek to a place you've never been before. I wish I could just jump and discover it for myself, but I'm terrified.

Never been afraid of change because I know that in this life, that is the only constant, whether I like it or not. What I'm spooked by is the idea of going out of my current state. We are in that era of our lives where we have finally settled and accepted that our definition of family is just me and him. Just us two until the end. We are okay with that. Our lives revolve around that circumstance. We made peace a long time ago. 

But life, as always, has other plans. He put us in a position of uncertainty. Are we or are we not? Should we or should we not? Could we still or not? Can we be or not? All those things floating in the air waiting to be decided upon.